I finished my finals! yay! that's one stress off my shoulders! Now all I have to do this week is catch up on some late work from being sick and tomorrow I have an elementary school reunion which i'm not really looking forward to because of the people but hey I get to see the teachers again I've been meaning to visit them but never had the chance or time to visit. Then on Wednesday I pick up my cap and gown for graduation.
But I had something very unexpected happen last Wednesday I was at church and it was after our lesson and I was talking to my friend well all of a sudden this guy who was in my ap english3 class last year came in and asked me if I knew any good anime to watch. This guy never really talked to me before I think the last conversation before this recent one was when I was a sophomore and I was taking pictures of everyone for yearbook and he was getting annoyed at me.
But I was surprised by this conversation. It started out as a simple what's a good anime to a long discussion on various topics hell I came out as a demi-pansexual to him and he didn't care he was still talking to me and hell I was able to curse infront of him easily. I usually don't curse in a church but this was an exception because we were discussing about the dicks of the school, and then he said something that shocked me even more. We talked about senioritis and how I was always in the corner quiet but answered questions spot on and he was telling me how smart I was but just so quiet and then now this is the shocking part he said he regretted not sitting next to me to talk to me and all. I was so shocked when he said that I just couldn't believe someone from this hell of a town I live in said that it shocked me even more just because he was a guy. Guys in my town don't usually say things like that to me. I was just really surprised. but man I did always have a crush on him even when we were younger I have to admit. I buried that crush tho because I knew better he seemed like a douche for awhile but I mean this conversation really made me see a 180 in his personality. He's actually the nerdiest guy I've met and one of the first guys IRL that knows of markiplier and Jacksepticeye 0.0 I mean yeah I know there are tons of nerdy guys and guys who has heard of both of those youtubers but he's the first one I had met in person instead of on the internet. It was so awesome we literally talked for about an hour and a half it was one of the best conversations I had ever had. Later in the discussion we talked about our political views and we share the same views with the exception of a few things but all in all I'd love to have another conversation like that with him. I left with the goofiest grin on my face because of it, and the pure fact he didn't judge me of my sexuality or my personal views but what made it even better is the stories he would also tell me about when he was a kid with his siblings. And I'm not saying I'm interested in him completely yet. I'm still on the fence about determining if he's still a douche and just being nice for once or if he is genuinely this nice and was only a big prick because of all who he hung out with (which is something he did mention) but I was just surprised he wanted to talk to me that long I mean every once in a while I put in my opinion or would change the subject but I mainly listened just because that's my nature when I talk to someone I don't normally talk to especially when I have this image of being that quiet girl in the back of class that's afraid to talk and gets called four eyes every so often but I mean hey his personality for that conversation was refreshing from the town I live and well he fits a few of my qualities I would look for in a relationship. He's way taller than me I think he's about a year older than me. His personality from that night just was a beautiful one hopefully I can see that side to him more often his eyes are just beautiful and yeah I think I have another goofy grin now but anyways I'm going to try not to develop another crush on him he's would be awesome to have as a friend.
But that's been on my mind for awhile I know I probably talk about guys a whole lot for a demi-pan but the people I know that are other genders I'm interested in are either taken, straight, straight and taken, celebrity, straight taken and a celebrity, gay or just not interested so there isn't a point talking about those people I'm not trying to offend anyone at all so if I sound offensive at all I'm sorry!
so sorry I haven't talked about all of the other genders mainly they are taken and not interested in me I'm sorry
That conversation tho kinda helped me forget the stress I'm going through to get through the last stretch of high school. so sorry while I go and blush and act like a goof
Stay Sweet Y'all
P.S. I also don't talk about every person I'm interested in because i don't want to seem like a complete desperate person because i think one person i am talking to probably thinks that and that's possibly the reason why i haven't heard back from them so yeah